Sometimes I don’t understand what I’m feeling. I’m so lonely and I start talking to a guy and I start to catch feelings..
. but it seems thing a never work out. Sometimes I miss my husband so much… 17 years together and 3 years without and I miss having him around knowing everything I like and having someone next to me but he is with someone else now and in my eyes he’s happy whether he really is or not idk my last boyfriend of the past 2 years recently ended and he has found a girl he has been seeing her. He says he’s ready to get in her pants and it hurts me so bad to hear that even tho I know him.and I are done I still feel like I want him ….. don’t hurt me again…my heart hurts me … now I’ve been talking to a guy in prison… yea I know dumb move on my part but I thought he was safe cus I can’t see him.cant touch him things can only be friendship but I feel myself slipping I’m catching feelings and he’s falling for me …. which im.sure any man that’s been in prison for 20 years would …. I lost my thoughts ….

Sometimes I get so stressed out…. tonight my son and I was laying on my bed in my room and my sister came home and basically accused me of putting rubbing alcohol in her drink. She kept staring at the bottle of it that is sitting on my make up table. She says I did it 2 times to her and that it makes her sick. I’d never ever do that. I really don’t understand what is wrong with her. Sometimes she scares me and other times I just want to cry. And I catch myself not even wanting to be home cus I just.dont want to deal with her. I know.shes my big.sister but dealing with her every day gets stressful. I almost feel like when I leave and go to work that she goes threw.stuff.in my room. I’m on the verge of tears tonight